I was talking with one of my children last night and he/she was saying how he/she is good all day long at school and rarely gets his/her name on the board anymore. He/she gets his/her work done on time and does not distract others. This child was saying how difficult it is to come home and “keep being good.” It is hard to follow the rules all day long, sit still, listen, and be kind to others and then come home without falling apart.
It made me think how much easier it is to sin at home. It is easier to take my anger out on my husband or the kids at home versus places like the grocery store or church. It is easier to complain at home in front of the captive audience of my family who I know will continue to love me versus friends who may come in and out of my life. It is easier to harbor anger towards those I am close to and act like they owe me something instead of choosing to forgive and move on.
I am grateful for the Lenten season because I am reminded that I can’t earn my way into good standing by following all the rules of the Christian life. We tell one another not to be so hard on ourselves and now wallow in our mistakes. Yet we also need to ponder how EASY it is to sin. In our more natural setting like home, it is our tendency to choose grumbling instead of gratefulness or resentment instead of forgiveness.
It is the season of Lent. May our hearts be humbled.